Mhm

Moving

2010-11-04T04:21:00.001-07:00

I’m not familiar with the feeling or seeing everything in boxes. It’s so weird. If i ever moved away from my family i’d be so heart broken.

Not to say that I won’t. Cause eventually i will... I am 23 so i’m sure moving away at one point in time in my life will be a healthy grown up decision. Honestly, when i was 16 i couldn't wait for day i was able to move out on my house. But i was definitely in a different place then as far as my heart and mindset towards family. Just this past year has my family been able to truly get past all of our differences and love each other. It’s a great feeling especially being that my mom was sick for so long I had forgotten what it was like to have a mom. That being said you may understand my “heart broken” dilemma.

Any who! I’ve yet to unpack. Maybe my room will stay cleaner if i just leave everything in boxes. Although i’m missing my favorite BDG skinny jeans... I should probably unpack. Currently only 5 items in my closet are hung up and i don’t even remember the last time i wore them. 4 out the 5 are long sleeved shirts i keep as under sleeves for when i’ll eventually go snowboarding again. Which reminds me did that obama law really pass? Cause if i can get insurance i definitely want to start skating/snowboarding again. I couldn’t even begin to describe how much i miss skateboarding.

I used to wake up at 5:30am head to Ripon skatepark and wouldn't leave until it was too dark to see the park. That was like my saturday ritual back in the day. I had the sweetest board set up too. I’ve never been too picky with my decks but i really like size 8’s for when i’m carving and if you’ve ever been to ripon skatepark you’d know the transitions are some of the smoothest in cali. I rode pink krux that had been broken in so they were as smooth as the bowls i was carving. China bones bearings and 53mm spitfire wheels. I miss that board. It was stolen a while back at a church gathering in a park. Hopefully the person who took it got as much use out of it as i did. What the heck is up with me and stuff getting stolen?! I need to attach velcro strips to everything i take outside of my house. so that if anything is ever taken i’ll hear that annoying detaching sound and be able to apprehend the thief with my fine set of ninja skills.

hmm... i should learn karate. Or what ever it is that white hair asian dude taught Beatrix Kiddo in Kill Bill. *adds to list of things to do before i die*

There are somethings that give me the feeling of being absolutely free and detached from everything. I don’t do these things as often as i’d like. The 3 being Worship, Skateboarding, and hiking in yosemite. Sounds crazy but i feel at home when i’m doing any of those 3 things. not all at once. but if that were possible THATD BE AWESOME! I digress, I get a peace knowing everything is gonna be alright maybe more so the reassurance when i’m worshiping. Being able to talk with god at any given moment makes him feel less distant and when i worship him i feel closer to his heart. When i’m skating its the closest i feel to flying. Gravity always makes sure i don’t leave the ground for too long but when i’m able to be in the air, even if its only a split second, i’m flying. When i’m hiking in yosemite i’m inspired by every beautiful thing around me. Reassured that if i’m captivated by what God made so effortlessly how much more time he put into making me, his daughter, imperfections and insecurities are written off when i’m reminded of those things. Like i said. it just feels like home.

You would think film would be under that feeling of being home but its way different from that. When i think of an idea for a video there is something that takes me over. I seriously can’t think of anything else until i see that vision come to pass. It’s like my mind goes crazy until i’m able to see in front of me what i could only see when my were eyes closed. Its a passion of mine. Definitely an artistic outlet. I’ve also always enjoyed making others laugh. My minds all over the place right now. I just haven't written anything in a while and wanted to. I think i’ll try going back to bed now. I technically went to bed at 9 something but no matter what i do i always wake up at 2am. My body is weird. Possibly as weird as my inconsistent sleeping patterns.

KIRK OUT

Be in MY NEW MUSIC VIDEO!

2010-06-12T17:47:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone!

I KNOW WHAT YOURE THINKING! "Holy crap shoot Meghan this is a long script!" I promise it'll only take you 10 minutes tops to film and the editing only took me 5 including rendering!

any who!

This is my first ever collab video with the Burries! I'm way excited to be able to create somin awesome with you guys! The song were going to be using is I Wouldn't Mind By He Is We. If you dont have the song yet get it for free here: http://bit.ly/dupni8

FILE TYPE:
Render your video to one of the five file types:
Video Files: .mov, .avi, .mts, .mp4, and mpg.

No .wmv's or .flv's. Sorry :/ This is a big project and i'd spend the majority of my time converting if everyone sent me wmv's/flv's.

ASPECT RATIO:
Output needs to be 720x480 or higher [720x1280, 1080x1440, or 1080x1920]. This is a standard export size. Just make sure before you render the video it'll be this size.

If you don't know how to do this you can google "16:9 render settings [insert your editing software]" and some good sources will show you how!

Send clips Via this website:
http://www.yousendit.com
OR
http://www.megaupload.com

SEND TO THIS EMAIL:
imaburry@gmail.com

OK! Now that thats out of the way lets get to the fun part!

I'll be lip dubbing to the song and creatively incorporating your videos in them as well.

SHOT:

my shot set up:

Have a solid background or wall behind you for filming or a really pretty place outside around grass and trees. I usually just hang up a sheet or small blanket! When filming the camera should be 3 feet away from you [so youre awesome face will be up close and awesome looking for the video] and position yourself in the center of the frame like this:

LOOK I'M IN THE MIDDLE!

LIGHTING:

my shot set up:

any type of lighting source you have would be good if youre filming indoors. A desk lamp, flood light, lamp, whatever you got. Try and make sure your face is evenly lit so theres no hard shadows. Like this:

SHADOWY LIGHTING

NOT SHADOWY.

SCRIPT:

Heres the downloadable script for when youre filming!:

http://www.box.net/shared/9shkv7arhq

Theres 10 different scenes! Theyre super easy and i have examples to give you a general idea :) I uploaded the videos individually for example purposes but please send me all of them together in one rendered file! :)

Color code:
lyrics
lip singing
actions/acting

-Everyone-
1. 7 seconds of you staring at the camera. you can smile or just be natural. stay in one place though without hand movements. (this will feel like forever)

2. Merrily we fall -6 seconds of you swaying back and forth then falling out of the shot.

***NOTE SCENE 3 AND 4 ARE IN ONE CLIP!***

 3. We're not going anywhere until we freeze-6 seconds of you pretending youre humming or singing as if notes were coming out of your mouth then dramatically freezing for two seconds before lip singing the next two lines immediately after. you can stare at the camera when you freeze or pose how ever you'd like.

4. I'm not afraid anymore -lip sing these two lines
I'm not afraid. 

5. But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.-look to your left for 4 seconds and smile as if there was someone next to you. look to your right for 4 seconds and smile as if there was someone next to you.

6. You came and you took this heart -7 seconds of an up hand heart.

7. Every word you write and sing is so warm to me. -10 seconds of you holding up a hand drawn sun in marker (so it shows up!)

8. Tell me everyday  I get to wake up to that smile. -10 seconds of you smiling into the camera

9. I wouldn't mind it at all. -lip sing these next two lines while taking glances to your left.
I wouldn't mind it at all. 

10. 10 seconds- hold up your screen name on your hand, shirt, or a piece of paper (be as creative as you want and be as "goofy" as you'd life for this clip. it'll be at the end of the video giving you credit for helping make it. :)

WOOO!!! THATS IT! I know it seems like a lot but hopefully the pictures and video clip examples help!

DEADLINE:
SUNDAY JUNE 13, 2010
10PM PST

I know the deadline seems soon but these are pretty easy shots to film! Don't worry about your shots being perfect or what other people will think about them. This is gonna be such a neat video and my first collab with you! So film film film! and send your clips in asap! :)

-Meghan

Smile

2010-04-24T12:44:00.001-07:00

The words I wanna say

Linger at the tip of my tongue

And leave a taste in my mouth

Of bitter sweet nostalgia

Maybe it's because you take my breath away

Along with all the words I've wanted to say

You

Make

Smile

"A smile is the light in the window of your face that tells people you're at home"

I fear

2010-04-13T20:11:00.000-07:00

that I'm afraid of feeling anything outside of what I've known for the past 3 years.

3 years of my life

I've kept friendships minimal

to avoid feeling what it was like to lose someone I cared about

I've avoided social gatherings

to escape the feeling of being alone in a crowded room.

I've avoided relationships

because I remember how bad it hurts to give my heart away.

When any of these feelings start to become more of a possibility

I lose my grip, my footing, and my confidence in my complacency.

I'm afraid to feel more than I have felt.

I don't want to hurt

but I'd rather feel something than nothing at all.

I believe there's more to grasp than the grip.

and I can't escape or avoid how I feel right now.

I blame my heart.

"The purpose of my instruction is that all believers would be filled with love that comes from a pure heart, a clear conscience, and genuine faith" -1 Timothy 1:5

My Purpose

2010-04-08T01:06:00.000-07:00

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

-Philippians 4:6

I worry about what i cant control and desperately try and control what i can.

But i cant.

It's like worrying if the sun will rise tomorrow.

even in a storm.

it shines above the clouds
rises and falls.

But not because of my worry.

but because of it's purpose.

i'm not the sun.
i'm not the one who controls it.
i'm just the one who benefits from its purpose.

My worrying is a distraction from my purpose.

Sometimes, i feel like i'm walking with out seeing

2010-03-11T23:54:00.001-08:00

Breathing without believing
each breath that i take
wont be my last
chance to change

who I am.

I walk blindly in a comatose state of complacency.

My vision is impaired by the hands that I place in front of each eye
preventing them from seeing today's challenge and tomorrows victory.

"Light a way, on my love.
Light a way, from above.
Shine it down, lead me home,
Back to him."

Am I merely living without truly grasping the life that's in front of me?

Psalm 119:174-176

Love

2010-01-14T02:30:00.000-08:00

If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (The Message)

I want to love like this.

Gossip

2009-10-18T22:42:00.000-07:00

Unjustified validity of opinion

Shh.

Seek truth.

In its rawest form.

Not opinion.

The difference.

Emotion versus Reality.

My source.

God.

Be built on truth.

Not opinion.

Overcome.

Trusting.

2009-09-25T18:15:00.000-07:00

Last year, i was able to write freely. I don't know what changed. But i do know i feel better when i'm not the only one inside my head. If that makes sense.

To be honest, putting how i feel in words is sometimes a struggle because it can't always justify how i feel. I don't strive for eloquence (obvious) but just honesty.

My heart. Whether i'm talking about a book, my hair, a video, or my life. It's honest.

I think i'll start writing more.

Thank you for the encouraging comments, emails, and tweets in regards to my last post. There are some things i keep private. Not for always. But for now. Vague. i know.

I guess to say the least, things are better now. More so then i could have even imagined. My emotions really took me for a ride. I let them of course. But Obedience beyond feeling has truly set me free.

p.s. C.S. Lewis is the man.

"Some people feel guilty about their anxieties and regard them as a defect of faith but they are afflictions, not sins. Like all afflictions, they are, if we can so take them, our share in the passion of Christ." C.S. Lewis

Listen

2009-09-23T22:22:00.000-07:00

I just want to hear Gods voice.

and know.

that I know.

His word for my life.

I need to make a decision.

Based on the plans He has for me.

I wouldn't care what anyone else said.

IF I knew what He said.

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. ¹³ If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.

Jermiah 29:11-12 NLT

Trying to Please

2009-09-03T11:46:00.000-07:00

The displeased.

I'm only human.

Two very different worlds with equally high expectations.

The thought of trying to please everyone

At the cost of losing myself makes me sick inside.

I need to stop taking things so personal.

There's more to words then the pain that lingers.

I just need understanding.

Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the Lord with all your heart;

do not depend on your own understanding.

A Tarnished Condition

2009-08-08T21:23:00.000-07:00

Induced by a contaminated ambition.

There's a taste in my mouth that's kept me from eating

not physical food but the nourishment I'm needing

To breathe

To grow

To overcome

To know

That what was inflicted

Could not be predicted.

But redeemed and made right

By his glory and light.

My heart burns for justice

for closure

for healing

for something more then a feeling

i can't make right what i cannot control

but choose to let go of the pieces i hold

in my hands

they are bleeding

from constantly needing

something more.

it's too heavy to bare

this Bitterness.

Lord, help me.

"Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it" Psalm 81:10

Box

2009-06-07T15:20:00.001-07:00

At times I get discouraged with the "place" the world puts me. I don't claim to be anything more than human. I just strive to be more Christ like in all I do.

This doesn’t mean I’m perfect, that I’ve never doubted, or never sinned. It doesn’t mean I’ve lived a sheltered life of forced religion taught by my parents.
It doesn’t mean I’ll judge others who have chosen to live a different life style or are a different religion then me.

It means, to me, that I’ve made a choice.
To focus on what God wants for me.
To live a life full of purpose according to his will.
To love people, instead of worrying about where they're at in life.
To be honest and sincere in my actions.
To live a life above reproach and questioning.
To set aside my wants and desires for his glory.
To do what is right, not because I feel I have to but because I have an understanding that I’m worth more than the pressures and standards of mans opinion of me.

To be a living sacrifice.

The "box" and its four small walls, built out of pre conceived thoughts, enclosed with the bondage of stereo typical allegations justified by previous acquaintances claiming to be the same but acted in a hypocritical manner.

This box.

Cannot contain me.

Stand

2009-05-22T11:30:00.000-07:00

Opinion: A personal assumption of the way a person perceives the reality of a situation, person, or topic. Not always but often times can be based off a stereo typed conclusion influenced by appearance, first impression, religion, sexuality, wealth, ect. A noun held in such high regard it has the ability to persuade the human mind into believing its factual even if it’s unsupported by actual fact and confronted by truth. It has the ability to destroy years of built up dreams, character, integrity, confidence and hope in only a matter of seconds of being uttered. Its presence can linger for many years without being noticed and is also capable of resurfacing without warning.

But when surrendered to the right foundation it can be a wonderful building block in person’s life.

Opinions are given with a choice.

1. To take it into consideration, separating truth from fact.
or

2. To take as full truth.

I have a teachable spirit and take everything into consideration

But

If it doesn’t line up with a firm foundation, the word of God in my case, I won’t allow myself to take it to heart. Not to say I don’t get discouraged from time to time by my plentiful critics. Cause I do. I’m human and far from perfect. But I’m striving to be something more than average. Which, isn’t the easiest thing to do in a world controlled by the media and over rated, highly valued opinions that are distorted by lust, greed, and the illusion of happiness. But I’m tired of the world telling me who I am.

[I’m sure I’m not alone]

So, I’ll stand.

Note to self:

Don’t let the world’s opinion stop you from being who you’re called to be. Even if you feel like everyone is against you. Stand. Cause sometimes that’s all you need to do to make a difference.

“…Let God be true, and every man a liar”-Romans 3:4

“…a person with a changed heart seeks praise from God, not from people.”-Romans 2:29

The Reality of Reality, Is.

2009-05-11T23:12:00.000-07:00

I don't want to believe it.

I don't even want to speak it out.

My bubble i've been living in, my protection, my invincibility has been penetrated by a single word. I'm not nieve to think things like this don't happen. I'm fully aware. Just, never prepared for how it would feel when I heard it in regards to someone I love.

I could be selfish and say, "I'm not ready for you to leave" "I'm terrible at goodbyes" "I want my kids to someday know you" "I don't know who I'm gonna go to when I need that special hug, only you can give" "What'll I do if youre gone? Who will encourage me? Who will listen to me the way you do?" "Please don't go. I need you."

But reality is, I cannot stop time. Nor do I have the capacity to understand the big picture in how it all works. There is truth in reality and although I don't want to see it, I cannot deny it's presence.

Tomorrow is promised to no one. But, there is hope in today.

Jesus help me understand.

mm.

2009-03-30T22:36:00.000-07:00

my Heart hurts.

that is all.

Someday, I'll learn.

2009-03-02T12:03:00.000-08:00

Oh, the bitter sweet consequences of irresponsible actions.

Just one of the many life lessons I seem to be learning this year.

I enjoy the fact that I am growing and am able to avoid history repeating itself, but sometimes I wish I could just learn things the normal way (if there is such a thing). Seems as if, I always take the alternative route of needing to learn EVERYTHING the hard way. It’s like my life is under constant reconstruction. I think I know what I’m doing and the minute I get comfortable I find myself flat on my face, having to learn all over again. I guess you could say it keeps me humble. But man does it hurt.

I feel so broken.

Time to dust off what I thought I knew and learn what He’s trying to teach me.

Hmph.

Youtube Quiz Thing

2009-02-04T13:34:00.000-08:00

Stole this from AmazingPhil :D

Username:

Strawburry17

Why did you pick it?:

i made it in 7th grade as my AIM sn and it stuck ever since. Also, Strawberry17 was taken.

Who did you first subscribe to?:

TheHill88

Who did you most recently subscribe to?:

It was actually my brother! haha "Dayviideo"

What does your last text message say?:

"Kill em! LOL" -Cory

Do you have any goals?:

More then i could count!

What was the last thing you bought?:

Cranberry juice and a danish.

Describe the person who posted this using one line?:

A amazing half man half lion individual! XD

Are you excited about anything?:

Oh, yes. I'm excited to be breathing! eap eap!

Do you have a crush?

Something like that.

Have you ever been drunk?:

I have many a times, in my past. 2 years sober! WOOP!

Who was the first Youtube you met in real life?:

RockinBlueWit<3

Who was the last Youtuber you met in real life?:

Zacharyxbinks<3

Do you pefer day or night?:

I love the day but often times sleep through it :/

Are you a member of any collab channels?:

VLOGCANDY

Do you have a secret account?:

Strawburry17Responds

Do you believe in God?:

With all my heart.

Which youtuber do you talk to the most?:

Tie between Nanalew and Zacharyxbinks

Which Youtuber do you think makes the best videos?:

MichaelAranda's are pretty great.

You may only subscrie to 5 channels and only watch their videos. who will they be?:

AHHH! this is hard :/
Zacharyxbinks
DudeneedaEaseonup
HurricaneAubrey
AndrewBravener
NanarockinbluelewWit.

Are you in a relationship?:

No, I am not.

would you date a smoker?:

No.

Where is your favourite place?:

Yosemite, CA. I would get married there if i could.

Are you a happy person?:

Oh yes! Very.

Would you kiss the person who posted this?:

The next man i kiss will be after the words "I do." Sorry Phil :P

What would you take to the desert island? :

A Harpoon (incase the whale try and kill me) A White Volley Ball to be my "Wilson", My Bible, Plenty of food and water, a friend or two maybe, maybe i'll just bring my house, yes?

Do you prefer sun or snow?:

I'm from California. Sun is a MUST!

Who did you last speak to on the phone?

Whitney (RockinBlueWit)

Who did you last text?:

My brother

What are you doing tommorow?:

Working then I have leadership :]

What is your favourite flavour of potato chips?:

BBQ!

What size are your feet?:

8 :]

What do you want?:

It would be nice to have a Valentine.

What do you need?:

More of God.

What do you remember?:

EVERYTHING!

What do you wish?:

I want a pet dragon like in Eragon.

Confess:

Your feet smell.

Honesty. Do you want people to anonymously post what they REALLY Think of you ?

My confidence does not fall into anonymous comments of others, but if you feel willed to post, i wouldnt stop you.

Yo, Monday!

2009-01-26T12:57:00.000-08:00

So i got a new hair cut...

I don't know if i like em... yet.
Oh, well. HEY GUESS WHAT TODAY'S MONDAY! Woo!
RIP weekend. I barely knew thee.
So, today i will be filming. I'm hoping to have my video finished and edited by tomorrow morning. It's a cute one so i wanna take time and make it PERFECT! muahaha! also i'll be on blogtv tomorrow! i'm thinking around 4ish.
That's not certain, but i'm thinking somewhere around there.Oh, i tried wishing everyone a happy monday but i had to write it out backwards on account of isight being a STUPID!

But anywho have a great week <3

Partner

2009-01-18T23:00:00.000-08:00

Dear Strawburry17,

As you may have heard, we're expanding the YouTube Partner Program and we thought you may be a good candidate. Becoming a partner will enable you to participate in ad revenue sharing and new syndication opportunities.

Here's what you need to do:

Sign in to YouTube and click this link: http://www.youtube.com/partners
Fill out the required information and submit. You will receive an email with instructions on the next steps to becoming a YouTube partner!

If you'd rather not receive future emails from us regarding new programs, please let us know and we can remove you from our mailing list.

All the best,
The YouTube Partner Support Team

OH YEAH!!!

21 days

2009-01-05T17:40:00.000-08:00

"Here is my heart. Here is my heart. Here is my heart."
"You can have it all"

Goodbye

2009-01-04T20:31:00.000-08:00

These are my last Goodbyes for all of 2008.

Sadly, I'm a bit late [since its already '09]
but I've seemed to drag a few things from the past year with me to the present.
So, I'm saying goodbye to what was and holding onto the memories of what were, but furthermore, I'm choosing to grow, move on, and start fresh.

Goodbye, Inconsistency, in all areas of my life.
Goodbye, Depression, induced by my home life and isolated self pity.
Goodbye, Wasted tears over a dead friendship, I managed to hold onto for yet another year.
Goodbye, Anger, caused by who you haven't been in my life. I've already forgiven you.
Goodbye, Jealousy, I never really liked how you made me act anyways.
Goodbye, Phantom Pain in my heart. I knew why the pain existed but I also knew what had already been mended.
Goodbye, You, I will never understand what made things so different, but it was. A part of my heart wishes it wasn't, but a bigger piece of my heart knew more then that little piece could fathom. I don't imagine things ever being the same, and that's why I'm saying goodbye.
I know You differently now.

Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye.
.2008.

Nostalgia

2009-01-02T19:09:00.000-08:00

In the past,
I had struggled with the thought of missing someone i had only known from the confines of my computer screen, but now I am in a position where i struggle with the thought of missing someone who has been far more then just a face behind a screen.

He is Someone I have had the honor of being able to get lost with on the endless one way streets of San Francisco. Someone, who i got past the third level of a first person shooter game at the local putt putt, not to mention made fun of me the whole time for the way I held the silly plastic gun. Oh, this someone I could honestly say has changed who I am completely for all of 2008.

Again, This someone I'm missing will never be just a person, but will always be one of my dearest friends.

Also,

This is something i could never escape or deny,
but Strawburry17 will always be madly in love with Mr. Zacharyxbinks, but as far as Meghan and Zachary goes, well, I would only hope a strong friendship would remain in their permanent future for ever and ever <3

And now I wait

2008-12-27T22:40:00.001-08:00

for a moment,

I was uncertain would ever come to pass.

Totally Wrong

2008-12-23T19:54:00.000-08:00

When i said that December would be a better month for blogging.

I believe, I underestimated the business of the holidays+combined with the launch of VlogCandy.

I've been swamped! I haven't had any extra time to even read! Aside from my daily devo's, extra reading has been out of the question!

Sweet Moses! I don't even know where my Narnia book is :[

'Sokay being busy... Is actually quite nice.

Look, me and my brother David made cookies!

Itsa Christmas Tree!

Mm. So gewddd.

Also! Presents I got From Aubrey and John!!!

From John, It's a lil Strawburry with a headband! :D

From Aubrey, It's a lil Strawburry Tea kettle! bahaha!

Aw, I love Christmas!

Well Folks,

2008-12-11T01:16:00.000-08:00

Your vote counted. I went with....

A SOCK PUPPET!!!

We have the same smile.

To be honest, i was going to sell this lil bugger... but over the past couple of days,

I've become quite attached to it.

Eh, but who knows.

Thank you so much for everyone's vote/input on what type of

puppet i should make! It really helped.

A Sock puppet was a good choice!!!

oh, oh, oh, before i forget! the difference in the last picture was...

i had gotten my bangs cut.

So it's kind of a tie between Denise and Wannabealoser

soooo here is your picture :D

Sock Vs. Bag

2008-12-07T22:05:00.000-08:00

mm. i love tea.

[also, do you notice any thing different about the picture above?]

[first to figure it out, gets a 'shout out' pic in my next blog]

[or a free internet high five, you choose]

Tomorrow I am going to the fabric store to pick up some supplies for my puppet challenge on VlogCandy. Which i'm really excited about, but I am a little bit torn.

You see, I have one of two options:

1. Sock Puppet

2. Brown Paper Bag Puppet

Help me decide?

WOW!

2008-12-04T00:38:00.000-08:00

So aside from the last depressing entry things have been looking up. This week alone i've went from 2300 subscribers to nearly 3000 and my VlogCandy video was featured in Peoples and Vlogs at #2. Not to mention, VlogCandy got asked to be partnered the same day i got rejected. A bitter sweet [pun heh heh] moment, but none the less i was still incredibly excited for VC.

Hopefully in the next two months i'll be able to get partner. No more use of copyrighted material, thats for sure. i mean if i really feel an itch to do a sing-a-long video i'll post it to my response channel to be safe.

And Holy Cow!!! Thank you so much to everyone who suggested a book(s)/author(s) you have no idea how incredibly excited i am to venture over to the local used book store and stock up on some good reading!

Youtube Partnership

2008-12-02T13:05:00.001-08:00

Dear Strawburry17,

Thank you for your interest in the YouTube Partner Program. Our goal is to extend invitations to as many partners as we can. Unfortunately we are unable to accept your application at this time. Your account does not contain sufficient original new content that represents the uniqueness of our community.

Oh, well.

November has not

2008-11-30T13:11:00.000-08:00

been a good blogging month.

i've had neither the time nor patience to sit down and write something worth reading.

December will be a better month!

i need to hurry up and finish some of the books i'm reading

-Mere Christianity (still)

-Prince Caspian (sooo gewwwd)

-Screwtape Letters (only on the first chapter)

all by C.S. Lewis.. He's my favorite.

For christmas i asked for The Lord Of he Rings series and Harry Potter. Hopefully i can crack into those bad boys by the start of the new year.

Also! i need to finish the first twighlight book before the movie goes out of theaters! i feel so left out being that i'm the only one in existance who hasnt read the silly book(s) yet!

ahhh, side note, i've never been able to just read one book at a time. i have to have a variety to chose from while reading or else i get bored. except with narnia... those books rock my world. i seriously cant put them down. It will be a sad day when i finish the last book. But hopefully i can stretch it out as long as possible! But yes, if you were wondering, that is why i'm juggling so many books at one time.

Hm, any suggestions on new books to add to my "must read" list?

youtube live

2008-11-22T23:54:00.000-08:00

was so awesome.
enough said.
time to sleep.

New Slippers

2008-11-21T23:20:00.000-08:00

My dad bought me new slippers.
[as shown in the picture above]

Random. They are so warm and fuzzy. I love them! and my dad for buying them.

Also,

holy freakin crap!!!

YOUTUBE LIVE IS TOMORROW!

I'm so excited i can hardly contain my excitement!
this is just so wonderful!
I really hope I don't turn into a silly n00b and get too afraid to talk to people.

I have no idea what I'm going to be wearing either... hmm.

MUST GO PLAN OUTFIT!

You

2008-11-20T23:30:00.000-08:00

There was something in my eye!

2008-11-19T22:15:00.000-08:00

I didn't cry i promise.
Oh, silly emotions.

Today, one of the girls i used to mentor threw a bit of sass my way and of course i crumbled in to tears. It sucks seeing people take different paths in life, that used to be so close to you.

and slowly having to watch them turn into a different person, hurts.

But tonight,

As i was crying, i asked God why he'd place people in my life that I'd learn to love so much, if they were only going to be taken away and turn into someone else.

and he told me, because you're the only one who will cry over them. I gave you a burden so you'd never stop believing in who they can be. Your tears are meant for prayers not self pity.

Then i got mad.
Cried some more.
Then understood.

Burdens help me remember its not about me.
Thank you God.

Gasp!

2008-11-18T18:03:00.000-08:00

GAH!
This collab will be wonderful!!!

*speaking life*

I'm Trying

2008-11-17T19:17:00.000-08:00

To not act off of how i feel and think before i actually do.
But Dear Lord! It is indeed easier said then done.
But well worth it.

Honest, if I'm emotionally driven I'll do things for personal gain and on conditional terms.
I want to be able to do things without being led by my emotions.

Instead, i want to be led by what is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and admirable.

I especially want to make sure I'm selfless and sincere in everything i do

I want to have the confidence in knowing I'm doing what is right without needing a feeling to confirm it is.

I don't want to love because i feel like it
but love, because He loved me first.

Also, I don't want love to be a feeling anymore,
but a state of being.

Neglect

2008-11-11T16:07:00.000-08:00

Has it really been 9 days since i've written in this thing

I have an explanation!

ITS MARGO'S FAULT!..

Ok, not really. Book reading and laziness has been getting the best of me.

Also, everyone and their mother is getting married!
My mentor just told me last night she's engaged.
Last month, my good friend got married.
I was browsing Myspace and all my old friends are married and have kids!
What the Moses!!!

Did i miss something?
Jesus help me.

On a lighter note... this is my favorite sweatshirt.

Best Dressed

2008-11-02T01:04:00.000-07:00

"The Agenda:"

1. Carve Pumpkin

2. Take Pictures of Pumpkin (above)
3. Bake/Decorate Cookies (Yes, i actually decorated them)

4. Finish sewing our black sheep/white sheep costumes (Came out cuter then the picture can show)

5. Go skate in our costumes (couldn't it was raining)
6. Throw giant pumpkin off of bridge and see it splode. (Undecided)
7. Go to party. (I won best costume!)

8. Lastly, Make a video while doing all of this (kinda, i'll put it up on my TRV vlog)

Overall today was an amazing day. I had a late start due to the extreme lack of sleep BUT had so much fun doing everything. i was quite surprised when they announced that me and my friend (in the picture above) had won "best costume" because honestly we looked quite silly but i guess since our costumes were homemade we had some favor.

A GIANT PUMPKIN

2008-10-30T23:17:00.000-07:00

I get to carve this bad boy Saturday!
and i know what you're thinking,
Friday is Halloween. Not Saturday.
I'm fully aware of this but i have reason!
I'm going to a costume party on saturday night with a good friend
and we decided to have a full out amazing saturday of fun filled awesomeness

The Agenda:

1. Carve Pumpkin
2. Take Pictures of Pumpkin
3. Bake/Decorate Cookies
4. Finish sewing our black sheep/white sheep costumes
5. Go skate in our costumes
6. Throw giant pumpkin off of bridge and see it splode.
7. Go to party.
8. Lastly, Make a video while doing all of this

I am so very excited for this weekend!

What if,

2008-10-29T14:01:00.001-07:00

Every day was treated like a new beginning?

Where grudges, bitterness, unforgiveness, and worries died the moment your head hit the pillow. And at the time you had awaken to a new morning your mind would be renewed, not lacking knowledge or wisdom from the past, but building on what has been made from prior situations and circumstances.

Each person you'd come into contact with you'd treat like it had been the first time you'd met them and your first impression persona was at the top of it's game. Being kind, loving, unconditional in terms of your friendship in how things are done to show thanks. What if, we did things without having presumptuous intentions of wanting to be thanked for what we had done.

What if, we shared our gifts just out of love and never had the expectations of wanting to be loved in return, because we had the reassurance of knowing we're already loved regardless of what we do.

What if, our confidence was placed in something bigger then ourselves so that our dreams weren't limited to our own fears and insecurities.

What if, believing was reality?

Will you be my Jim Halpert?

2008-10-28T03:26:00.000-07:00

And i use Jim only because i just got finished watching the office.
Not that i really want an identical Jim Halpert, but i would enjoy a friend like him.

The reason i pose a question in my title, is this:

I have no problem standing on my own.
No problem, going to a wedding without a date,

A party with no dancing partner,

The movies with no one to cling to,

and I’ve even adjusted to going to the mall and shopping by myself too.

Now, this may sound slightly depressing or fairly stupid but hear me out.

I’m ok with doing these things alone.

I’m sure a few years ago I wouldn’t feel complete if I didn’t have a guy on my arm to do these things with, but I’ve learned to love myself without needing reassurance of who I am by the title of my Status on myspace.

I love who I am and everything that comes along with me. I’m not perfect, which has been the hardest thing to swallow, but I’m human and every mistake I make gets me closer to who I want to be, by learning from it.

Now a couple months ago I would not be able to tell you any of this but now I can confidently say:

I’m Ready to

Trust someone with my heart

Take a chance on love (godliest form)

Hold someone’s hand and not feel convicted

Dance with someone and not care whose looking

Go see a horror movie and cling to someone’s sweatshirt on the scary parts

Buy matching shoes just for the sake of “being cute”

Support someone’s dreams and visions and have them support mine in return

Be an open ear to comfort when comfort is needed

A hug when words won’t do

Bake someone’s favorite cookies just to make them feel special

Compliment someone’s strengths and weaknesses

Talk things out instead of walking out

I’m ready...

Say wha MTV?

2008-10-23T15:20:00.001-07:00

So Earlier in the year i got a message from a person named Lauren who said she was with MTV and wanted me to do some type of video review, but i would have to send in some personal information in order for everything to work out. My first initial reaction was that this person was a dirty liar just trying to get my number, so i ignored the message and made nothing of it. Turns out, it really was MTV. The707Juveniles actually followed through with email and wound up on TV.

so i emailed this Lauren person and told her if anything new was going on to let me know and a couple weeks ago i recieved a message telling me about this webcam video show, similar to american idol, and tomorrow i'll be like a member of the audience or something. Honestly, i'm not certain. But i do know one thing i cannot sing! Now i'm terrified. Because, what if they chose me to sing? Imma crap my pants and die right there. GAHHH!

who know's if the show will get picked up but i'm along for the ride. This is quite exciting :D
Maybe.. just maybe... "I'll get discovered"

My trip

2008-10-21T14:45:00.000-07:00

It was so nice seeing Whitney. Knowing that she's a real person and not just some "internet friend" who lives next to jlo.

I sometimes question the amount of time i invest into these friendship's via the www. considering the fact, for the most part, that's all they could ever be. I can't call Whitney up some random day and see if she wants to hang out or give Zack a hug whenever i feel like it. Shoot, i cant even ride my sweet razor scooter with Aubrey if i wanted too. I'm limited to the time i can actually spend with the people i truly care about.

So when i was able to see her it made me feel like i hadn't made her up in my mind and there was a nice sense of reassurance knowing that she really did exist. It was a nice feeling. My trip was overall nothing short of amazing. i was awake +30 hours and experienced an amazing amount of inside jokes with two awesome friends and my lil brother. Thank you Jesus for this trip!

Fin

2008-10-16T22:44:00.000-07:00

Picture caption: [insert your thoughts here]

So i finished reading Looking for Alaska by John Green. I must say he is a very talented writer. The story was well worth reading although i probably wouldn't suggest it to my mentoree's. Just based off of the vulgarity in the content at times. But, that is just my personal opinion/taste in reading material. I am going to pick up a copy of Paper Towns. I'm curious to see how his writing style varies.

I also finished reading The Magicians Nephew by C.S. Lewis (i think i already mentioned this..) and it didn't take me long to finish. It was amazing!!! If you liked the movie The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe you will definitely love this book. It ties in all the missing pieces of how Narnia came about who the white witch is and so on, and so on. I enjoyed it very much.

I enjoyed it so much, i went out and bought the rest of the series in one huge-mungous book! Which i'm reading at the moment. I'm currently on the second book The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe and surprisingly it is still very interesting even though i've already seen the movie. Reading the book is totally different.

Oh and i'm still reading Mere Christianity and The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis. Now, I've made improvement on Mere Christianity. I'm in chapter 4 of book two and its getting easier to comprehend because it's less "cheesecakie" (ha) but still I'm taking my time with this bad boy. i want every chapter to soak in. I'm also learning sooo much, alot of the pages are highlighted and marked up with lil post it's of notes. The Screwtape letters is also very good, but i'll be honest, I've been neglecting it. I'm only on chapter 4. Not that the book isnt worth reading, i just havent gotten around to it as much.

My last "Also"
I'M LEAVING FOR LAGUNA/LA TOMORROW!!! GAH!
[technically saturday morning but it'll be dark outside so it will still feel like friday]

Hm..

2008-10-15T23:11:00.000-07:00

I'm excited.
Road Trip.
Bff4l meet up.
Gathering meet up thingy.

I haven't done something like this in a while.
[crazy spontaneous road trip]

There will be many a pictures
and many a thoughts on Sunday.

Mhm.

2008-10-11T23:08:00.001-07:00

I Made

2008-10-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

A new Video.

So i counted and I'm pretty sure it's some where between 47-50 facts i state during the period of this video. Hopefully i get a lot of questions, appropriate ones, so i can make a sweet video.
So, if you have any you've been dyinnngg to know... Email me!

My Thoughts

2008-10-06T22:20:00.000-07:00

My eyes start to water from the semi blinding vibrant light shining through the bulbs of my ceiling fan. I look away and close my eyes to see what type of picture might form if I close them tight enough. The outline of the bulbs resembles an animal, or a distorted smiley face, or even a butterfly. I'm not certain, the size keeps changing. I quickly open my eyes and the white shapes start to fade. I turn on my side restlessly, in hopes that I'll find more comfort in that position and might be able to fall asleep. Unfortunately, no matter which way I might lay, sleep is ultimately unattainable.

You see, my body is utterly exhausted but my mind never rests. My thoughts keep me up at night, they strangle any possibility of assurance, equanimity, or peace. They walk me through the repetitive occurrences of my day, week, and hidden conflicts within myself. Every conversation, situation, and circumstance is replayed in my mind, only to make me question my own judgment and social abilities. Sometimes, I'm very constructive in my reasoning and encouraging depending on the situation but other times I'm my worst critic. In all honesty, I do very little to try and prevent these these thoughts from strangling my much desired dreams. I only encourage them by giving unnecessary attention to the seeds of doubt, worry, and insecurity that take deep root in my mind and are ultimately responsible for my lack of sleep.

Ah yes, it is not my thoughts that kill my peace, but it is my free will that destroys it.

The battlefield of the Human Mind.

"For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ" -2 Corinthians 10:3-5, NIV

Reading

2008-10-06T01:38:00.001-07:00

Several Great Books

Like this one... (Mere Christianity)

and this one... (The Screwtape Letters)

Oh! and this one! (Looking for Alaska)

Something to think about:

"If there was a controlling power outside the universe, it could not show itself to us as one of the facts inside the universe-no more than the architect of a house could actually be a wall or staircase or fireplace in that house. The only way in which we could expect it to show itself would be inside ourselves as an influence or a command trying to get us to behave in a certain way."-C.S. Lewis

I'll Tell You

2008-10-03T23:11:00.000-07:00

One thing..
I love good company.

Simple things like picture messages, cheesy pickup lines, and secret Skype crypto games
make my heart smile.

Captivated

2008-10-02T17:20:00.000-07:00

Today, I felt the need to do something "active" aside from vigorous typing and mouse clicking. So, I went to the park and brought my soccer ball to kick around. I kind of just wanted to be alone.. Not that I always like to but this was a time where it called for it. Sounds depressing, but it was actually a lot of fun.

After ten minutes of a few soccer drills i threw in the towel for my "activeness" for the day and collapsed on the grass. I didn't really want to go home just yet so laid out on the grass and looked up at the clouds. I had some sweet worship music going on my Ipod so it made for a real serene moment. The crazy thing is, I totally lost track of time and stayed out on the field for 45 minutes. It was nice knowing that i didn't have to worry about the time i was losing because who i was spending it with.

Note to self:
Never get too busy
where you no longer have the time to
stop and smell the roses*
get lost in the clouds in the sky
fall asleep in a warm bed of grass
or take in the true beauty that God has made as a gift for you
His way of letting you know He's all around.
and never too far away.

If I could

2008-10-01T13:59:00.000-07:00

I'd be a Ninja.

1st day of October.
.
.
.
I want pumpkin pie.
End.

Encouraged

2008-09-30T00:18:00.000-07:00

Things are looking better and I'm staying Encouraged.
This weekend i went to my older brothers church and the message was really what i needed to hear. I feel renewed and like I've taken in a new wind.

My last entry i was so broken. Thank you for those who prayed for me. It helped so much. God's word is so true when says he will never give you more then you could handle. So i feel encouraged and really wanna seek a deeper relationship with God and truly go after his heart like David did.

observation: Back in the day the prophets didn't have a bible to go by like we have now. They went purely off of their relationship with God. (There's Power in Prayer)

Another Observation: We not only have the Word, but we also have the Holy Spirit. How much more are we capable of doing then the prophets who called down fire from heaven who had less then us now?

There has to be more to believing in God then where Christianity is topped off at right now. We're the generation that is supposed to be doing signs in wonders in his name. Healing people who are sick and raising the dead.. I'm sick of stories.
I wanna see reality and Be apart of it.

Side Note: I finished the 1st book of Narnia. Rocked my world. Unfortunately I'm still on the 3rd chapter of Mere Christianity... That book is so amazing. I don't wanna read through it.. i really want to understand it. even if it hurts my brain!

Burdened

2008-09-27T01:29:00.001-07:00

I asked God to make my prayers like his..

I wanted to have a bigger burden for the lost, unloved, suicidal, confused, forgotten, and abused..

I've noticed that sometimes, the very thing i'm praying for is similar to what I'm going through. It helps knowing that you can help someone else through something you've conquered yourself.

I keep in mind, If I'm really burdened.. i won't give into the victim mentality of wondering "why me?"
but embrace my trials and have joy in knowing my faith is being tested as I'm going through it.

It's just hard..
vague i know..

If you can..
Pray for me.

Song: Brandon Heath
-Give me your eyes

My Guarded Heart

2008-09-24T00:42:00.000-07:00

"My heart is guarded.
Only one person has the key"

I close my eyes, and try to image what my guarded heart would look like. My first thought, are these huge white walls, very similar to drywall, with no ending point. They are roughly 8 feet wide and are connected at each corner to take on the shape of a pentagon. The look of it is sturdy, but with the right amount of applied force, the thin plaster layering, can be penetrated. These walls are flawed, and will not do. If I were to settle with this type of protection, it would only be a matter of time before a boy with eloquent words and charm might discover the obvious weakness and have found his way closest to my heart. Only to mistreat it of course, on account of how easy it was to obtain. My weaknesses will be apparent to him, due to how close he was able to come in such a short amount of time. In moments of vulnerability he'll point them out to maintain control and take up ownership of my heart in the process. When he is done and has had his fill, he'll leave. Only to puncture another whole in my false sense of security I once called a wall. Leaving the treasure that was at one time inside, shattered, beyond repair of human hands, bleeding from wounds of rejection, insecurity, self hatred, depression, and inadequacy. Oh, this wall will not do. It may have sustained my heart for a short time in my younger years, but the durability needs to be solid and fortified, in order to contain this restored heart of mine.

Let me close my eyes, once again, and rethink this.

This time, there is not one wall, but multiple walls built of dense metals, welded together with only the finest craftsmanship. I take a closer look and notice the shape of the walls have changed. They no longer are in the form of a pentagon, but have now taken up the appearance of a sphere. With each layered wall there is an actual place of entry, unlike the previous one, allowing access closer to the heart but at a cost. The cost for entry is labeled above each door with the titles of friendship, trust, loyalty, commitment, covenant, Christ, love, and other key terms the foundation for a relationship is built upon. With each door that is passed through, entry for the next becomes harder. Unlike before, it's something to be work towards and not taken for granted. Access is not allowed by force but by patience and understanding. Mind you, character and integrity will be checked at every door, just to test the intentions of the seeker. Only one truly after my heart, not selfish emotions or desires, will get close enough to hear it beat.

I'm very fond of these walls. They're much better then the one built before it.
I would hope the one seeking after mine would have similar standards for his heart.

Considering only a Prince marries a Princess
And a King marries a Queen.

Proverbs 4:23
Guard your heart above all else,
for it determines the course of your life.

Honors?

2008-09-23T01:36:00.000-07:00

This sounds so lame but nothing gets me more pumped then seeing that cute lil baby ribbon at the bottom of my page... even if it is only for a day.

ahh, youtube.

In other breaking news.
I started in on my second book The Chronicles of Narnia: The Magicians Nephew. It is so amazinggg. That is a given being that Mr. C.S. Lewis is the author. But I was unaware of the greatness in these lil childlike books. So now I'm trying to tackle both Mere Christianity and Narnia. It's a good balance considering every time i read Mere Christianity my brain hurts from the hardcoreness that comes out of each paragraph. That book is so detailed someone wrote another book trying to explain it, Intense huh? Dear Lord.. I'm only on chapter 3 at the moment. Slowly but surely working my way into the book haha.

ill

2008-09-21T18:17:00.000-07:00

Sickness: Suffering from pre-upload anxiety. Also known as PUA.

Syptoms: Doubt, nervousness, nail biting, worry, anxiousness, and inability to be reassured or comforted.

Cure: Nice Comments, Lots of Views, and a slap in the face.

Reading

2008-09-20T02:16:00.000-07:00

A new Book!

The other day i went to an old used book store and seriously felt like a lil kid in a candy store.
i only purchased 3 books because i have a tendency of loading up on good book reading but never finishing. so i'll tackle 3 then go back to the book store and buy everything some more.

Books purchased:
Mere Christianity
The Screw tape Letters
The Chronicles of Narnia: The Magicians Nephew

all by C.S. Lewis.
I read The Great Divorce by him and fell in love with his hardcore writing. Or as Shawna would put it "cheesecake writing".

Also Random side note. I went ice blocking today with a couple friends and let me tell you it was the most exhilarating thing I've ever done in my life.

End.

Blank

2008-09-18T01:16:00.000-07:00

Hot cocoa anyone?

I lie, it's coffee. mm.
originally for Zack :)

Skype FTW<3

New Moves

2008-09-17T03:14:00.000-07:00

By far, the best part of my day..

Google Uploader hacked the quality.
But i think you get the point of the sweet 4 step dance move.
Haha, I dare you to try it!
You'll have so much fun if you do.
I promise.

I came across a really neat scripture in John,
Jesus is speaking to the crowd of people who are accusing him of being demon possessed because they didn't understand his deep parables and teachings.

John 7:24
24 Look beneath the surface so you can judge correctly.”

Sigh.

2008-09-15T01:14:00.000-07:00

Photo Shoot?

2008-09-13T02:55:00.001-07:00

Today (technically yesterday) i went to the park and got my picture(s) taken. It was quite a lovely spot with a wonderful scenery and great lighting. The only thing is...

I'm a bit of weirdo when it comes to getting my picture taken.
I kid you not. Every single one of my school photos I look like a doofus.
The only picture that turned out decent was probably my kindergarten picture, only because I was adorable, and my senior picture.

I swear! It's like I can't relax and just get my picture taken. My whole body has to spaz out including my face. I remember thinking to myself "Meghan, keep a serious face! Quick! Think of something sad!" Then i'd think of something semi funny that was sad and i'd have a retarded half smile half sad face on. Bosh, pure madness.

Out of 700 pictures taken, I kept 17.

Possibly this will just be something I need to practice at.
You know, like normal body posture and regular smiling.
Opposed to awkward arm positions and over excited smiles.

Here's a few sweet ones from the collection. Unedited of course:

and I know what you're thinking already. "A Youtube shirt? Seriously Meghan?" I have an explanation. I had way stressed my self out about this photo shoot and when I got home I only had enough time to grab one outfit, which was the obvious, then had to leave. Also, I couldn't think of another one to wear...

Still pumped about the awesome blessing.
The whole photo shoot was free.
I'm excited to see the edited pics.

On a lighter note. I had a really good day at work. I was entertained, for a good portion of it, by a friends crazy story of an orphaned mini mouse.
Baha, Good Times.

Dream

2008-09-10T13:43:00.000-07:00

Had a dream i went to the store and purchased, C.S. Lewis: The Screwtape Letters.

I really want to go buy it.
There is a huge possibility I will.
I mean, I am a big fan of making dreams come true.
Har.

Also, I'm really pumped for certain videos and channels that are happening soon.
I seriously can't wait!
New ideas, friendships, dreams, planning, outreaching, ahhh it's all so awesome.
Praise God!

So i had made a video stating that i was going to be on Blog TV at 8:30pm but was unable to actually go on until 9:11pm.
Epic Fail.
I felt really bad for my subs.. i'll send them candy in the mail so they'll feel better.
But, when i actually got around to co-hosting, with my good friend Tyler, our show was put on the front of blogtv!

I posed for the screen shot. haha
Idk if it happens regularly, but it was exciting!

Mm. New Start.

2008-09-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

I'm going to start writing in this.

I was once very fond of my Livejournal
but unfortunately
not very fond of the audience.

So, I'll start here.
To escape what was there.

Plus, i really need to exercise my writing.
Especially if I'm not going to be in school for the next 4 months.

It'll be good.